Time has Dawned Anew

Time has dawned anew, life and all its seasons have gone on as they always do, year after year....and in this year and some...I too have grown. I have felt the seasons moving within me...I have changed some. I hope for the better. I am learning to treat myself better...to put myself first often and especially when it's important.

I am beginning to learn some of the things I love most! I have forgotten to write many things that I wanted to keep in my remembrance, and maybe I will write them later. But for now, I want to just tell you of the things I have realized that my heart delights in....

Summer rains, and the sweet smell of the air after the rain.
Summer Lightening and thunder storms.
The feel of fresh morning dew.
Brisk walks ...or a good run in the early morning ...before the sun is completely awake...and hearing the sweet birds morning song!
Watching the sunrise as I run and I speak with my Heavenly Father for the first time that morning...knowing he IS listening to me...
I love the quite of the morning before the sun rises and there are no cars on the roads,at this time of the morning, I feel like I am the only person left on the face of the earth..and HE is talking to just me...HE is listening to me as if I were his only child...as IF I was of ultimate importance!

I love feeling my feet hit the pavement and the muscles flexing as I run...knowing I AM GETTING STRONGER!
I love the sunshine on my face, and the sand between my toes, I love squishing my toes in the mud and hearing the mud go gloop, gloop, gloop!

I find such joy in seeing my sweet Grandchildren at play...and I especially feel loved when they call me "mammy"...or sometimes "mlammy" as Aysa still says!
And when they want to climb upon my lap and sit for a while.
I love the softness of Xyla's small , little, puffy cheeks and the way she leans her head into me to give me a hug.
I love seeing the sweet beautiful loving little face and incredible dimpled smile of Nautika as she runs to me with open arms and her sweet eyes sparkle with excitement as she sees me and comes to say hello!

I love it when Nivek and Aysa want to have dates with me and sleep overs...and I wish I had more time to give to them...they are growing so fast...I yearn for the days I might not have to be so consumed with making a living , so I can make more memories with them...and I hope I can balance my time well, so that I do not miss out on making these memories while they are still young.

I love to see the unending energy of Treydence, and his excitement at learning new things! I love the precious smile of Ventry. And I love that she is ready for me to hold her more often! And my heart aches to be able to have some time with Amorina.

I love flowers any time of year...just about any kind of flower....Easter lilies, yellow roses, Pansies, Chrysanthemums too, but lilies and exotic flowers are especially nice.

I love the smell of a floral shop and every time I go into a shop, it leaves a little pain in my heart remembering the days when I spent much time caring for the flowers...creating arrangements...etc.....and ShaBloom was almost mine.

I love flower gardens that feel like I am in a secret special place ...that only I can find...solitude...a place where I can kick my shoes off and lay in the grass...or sit on the big swing and immerse myself in a great book.

I love big porches...especially wrap arounds...and Adirondack chairs....big huge beach towels....beach balls and large colorful beach umbrellas.

I love the smell of suntan lotion and all the memories it evokes of summer days gone by, speed boats, row boats, and skidoos, and the waves of the sea.

Rocks on the seashore and the many varieties of seashells

Sea turtles, and tortoise, penguins and porpoise, whales, and seagulls.

Giant Kodiak bears, Sea Lions, and little black bears.

Pelicans and storks, Flamingos, and doves.

Elephants (MY FAVORITE!) and Lions, Tigers, Giraffes and Zebras, Horses, Rhinoceroses, and big horned sheep and beautiful swans....oh so many varieties of gorgeous animals our Heavenly Father has made for us on this earth to enjoy.

I love rivers and streams, lakes and oceans too!

and TREES. Oh sweet TREES! I really sincerely cant live without trees in my life. I need a place that grounds me...with grass and trees of all kinds...especially white aspen.

Skydiving....OH YES SKY DIVING!! Oh how I wish to do this again!
Water skiing....hang gliding, hiking , camping, and having adventures too.

I want to go spelunking in a cave and learn to rappel and canyonneer. And oh....Zip lining ...for SURE!!! I would love to go zip lining in the Alaskan rain forest next August!!

I love the feeling of standing on a mountain top and seeing the 360 degree view...especially if it was difficult climb to conquer.

I wish I could be a great photographer and capture the moments the way my daughter Shaina does...
I wish I could play the piano the way my Grandma Mildred use to play
I wish I could play the guitar the way my Shantel does and sing to my love a sonnet so fair
I wish I could remember how to play my flute

I wish I could always know how to soothe my children's souls and give them happiness and joy all the days of their lives.

I love visiting with old friends and making new one too
Talking with my best girl friends until way into the night

I love being kissed, especially when his hands are holding my face. I love being touched tenderly..caressed and sweetly awakened with love
I love little gifts brought unexpectedly with love and sincerity...even sweet orange juice, and peppermint patties too

I love cuddling under a warm blanket and watching movies drinking tea or hot cocoa
I love it when my honey lets me put my feet on his lap and then he rubs them tenderly
I love it when my sweet love rubs my hands and caresses them while we sit in church together.
I love making love on a lazy Sunday Afternoon
I love watching the sunsets in the back of a truck

I love camping "alone" with my sweetheart in the back of a pick up and watching the stars..talking...and sharing our thoughts and dreams
I love making love in front of a warm fire
And running through the forest absolutely bare
And Skinny dipping too

I love making chocolate chip cookie dough and then eating balls the of dough. I love the process of baking the cookies, more then eating them! ha ha!
I love warm bread right out of the oven.
Muffins of ALL kinds
Sweet breads, cheesecakes and pies.
And EVERY kind o fruit imaginable!!

And hot Oatmeal with cinnamon, raisin, cranberries, and sunflower seeds! Yum Yum!!

I love SOUP....oh dear soup of ALL kinds. Soup totally soothes my soul. It is my comfort food for sure.

I love cooking and baking for my family and their oohs and aahs when I am done and they can smell and taste my beautiful creations. It warms my heart to hear them express gratitude and to tell my I'm the BEST.

I love the smell after cleaning my house, sparkling faucets and clean mirrors and shining windows

I love it when ALL the laundry's done and put away!

I love the feeling of fresh clean garments against my skin

And new warm sheets on my bed and towels right out of the dryer

New socks and the way my hair feels after being freshly cut and styled

I love being pampered at the salon with my toes and finger nails done!

I love my new hair color...brown...I do feel sexy and young!

I love BOOKS, BOOKS, BOOKS, and more BOOKS! I can't get enough, and wont be satisfied until my library reaches the sky!!

I love expanding my mind and pondering on new ideas...talking to those who are smarter then me....listening to philosophical discussions...paradigm shifts, and recognizing something profound....those amazing aha moments!

I love art..and contemplating the mystery of what the author might have been thinking and trying to convey with their beautiful pallet.

I adore concert...musicals, dramas, ballets, Shakespeare...and much more.

I love COLOR...oh yes...there must be color in my life! Many different colors...warm and inviting, bright and cheery, sweet and lively, crisp and cool....all colors...I want a pallet of beauty surrounding me. Not a rainbow of colors...and not gaudy...but just sprinkles of sparkling color...tender morsels to be cherished and delighted in, surrounding my inviting domain.

There are so many other things I love and wish for...I will save those for another day =)